The Snows of Kilimanjaro（英文版)

Read after I returned from the top of Kilimanjaro. Also viewed the movie.

On the snow capped mountains of Kilimanjaro, you only have one chance, either to conquer it or be conquered by it.He had been contemptuous of those who wrecked. You did not have to like it because you understood it. He could beat anything, he thought, because no thing could hurt him if he did not care.All right. Now he would not care for death. One thing he had always dreaded was the pain. He could stand pain as well as any man, until it went on too long, and wore him out, but here he had something that had hurt frightfully and just when he had felt it breaking him, the pain had stopped.Outside the tent the hyena made the same strange noise that had awakened her. But she did not hear him for the beating of her heart.

作家哈里在成名后傍上了富婆，长久的富足生活剥夺了他创作的动力，因此他计划去非洲打猎，企图重新振作自己的精神。可惜，他在打猎时受伤导致腿部感染坏疽，当死亡不可避免时，他终于为自己不断浪费写作天赋的下半生感到懊悔。 死亡的前一天，过往的回忆不断涌现。被炸出肠子、痛不欲生的军官，被故意冻死在雪山里的女俘虏。滑雪与赌博的日子。失去心爱女人后的悲痛，过度嫖娼后的空虚。童年祖父的木屋与猎枪。上吊自杀的旅馆老板以及在巴黎护墙广场的生活——他正是在这个贫穷的街区开始自己的写作生涯。 但这些真实而触动的过往他都没有写，因为他已经失去写作的紧迫感，也失去将它们写下来的勇气了。 濒死之时，哈里终于完成了对自己的审判，他在幻觉中坐上飞机前往乞力马扎罗山的山顶。他的灵魂和那只因攀登山峰而死的豹子一起，凝结在了乞力马扎罗山的白雪之中。

可解读的角度太多了 阶级: 以作者来看，富裕阶级的生活舒适，而贫穷阶级的生活比较有趣也有情味，相对更有色彩。Harry回忆的是自己过去的各种冒险，而非违背内心感受娶了Hellen后的舒适和享受。 勇毅: 被认为是男人的核心价值。即使死亡甚至超越死亡的痛苦都是可以承受的。 死亡: 死亡无形无色，只会在最后一刻悄悄侵袭你的身体，承担你的重量。被救出时遇见的草原、森林、角马和乞力马扎罗山只是Harry的幻觉。 关于乞力马扎罗死去的豹: 没人知道他在寻找什么，可能是攀登顶峰，可能是追寻猎物，也可能仅仅是想感受寒冷。自然的无所不包的辽阔与宏大以悲剧性将世界上最强大、坚毅的狩猎者变成一尊雕塑，以见证个体的渺小和生命的无常，但雕塑本身仍不失为颂歌。他的生命故事存在于无数捕猎的惊险神话，也在最后凝固的坚冰——尽管最后他没做任何事。

我觉得这本书比《太阳照常升起》要难读得多，没记错的话，后者短句子多一些。

1. 渴望的生活和现实际遇之间的空缺 2. 我的人生都被战争给毁了 3. 死亡像黑影掠过

read fragmentedly with a smattering of it

Everything said is dreamily.

It’s actually a story about love, about a young love that drives you crazy, about a lifetime love that you can’t stand, about a pure love of the city of love, Paris.

Just picture Kilimanjaro under the snow, and you will somehow figure out the .essence of loneliness. Everything said is dreamily.